So, I haven't posted on my weight loss since here. That's because I pretty much stopped making any progress. My weight was zig-zagging back and forth and I wasn't putting the work into it. I recently jumped back on board and I got as low as 134. Then I lost it (my motivation, not the weight) again and now I weigh. . .
hang on, let me go get my scale
140.0
yuck.
I've literally seen that number, and every number between it and 135, 12 billion times in the last 4 months.
(okay 12 billion times is a bit of an exaggeration. but i think you get the point i'm trying to make)
YO-YO
Here's the problem:
oh yes I know what it is, I just don't know how to fix it
I work hard 4 days a week, 12 hour shifts. I am physical for all 12 hours. I don't get to sit down. I pack very healthy eating choices and have no time at home except to sleep and hug my hub for 2 seconds, so I don't do any random snacking. I even occasionally make it on the treadmill.
You're probably thinking, "I don't see a problem there." That's because there isn't one. The problem is the other 3 days of the week. These are the problems/thoughts/mentality I fight those 3 days:
1 - I worked hard the last 4 days so the last thing I want to do is go to the gym to work hard again
2 - I ate well (sometimes boringly so) so I want to enjoy some food. However, I have yet to master the art of moderation.
3 - by the end of the 4 work days I have usually hit my 2 pound weight loss goal so I think those 3 days won't matter.
Hello, if you eat too many calories the weight comes back. I can't seem to remember that until monday weigh in rolls around. Then I have a Homer Simpson "Doh" moment. Sometimes I even smack myself in the forehead.
Here's what I have learned from this experience.
Weight loss is purely mental.
okay maybe not purely, but at least 95% mental.
Yes, you have to eat less, exercise more, to lose weight, but last time I checked, my legs do not have a mind of their own. The only reason they don't get on the treadmill is because I don't tell them to. My stomach does not decide to eat 2 entire bags (not individual bags, the medium size, fills-up-a-candy-bowl bag) of m&m's in 2 days,
I do.
Hypothetically speaking.
Are you picking up what I am putting down? If all it took to lose weight was eat less, move more, we would all be skinny. Instead we have to get past ourselves, fight those 'inner demons' or whatever you want to call them.
It's ridiculous.
Just get on the dang treadmill, stop putting so much in your mouth.
That's what I try to tell myself. It's not working yet. What works for you?
I need some help.
